positive energy in life..

Our thoughts are the doorway of our emotions. “I'm completely stuck in this” - if such thoughts crop up in your mind quite often, it's time to give a serious thought to the things going wrong. A possible reason can be the responsibility of playing of several roles in life.

I am feeling bad when my bro felt sad when I forgot his birthday hmmm ... it is happening with me all the time..even my frnds r forgiving me all the time when I forgot their bdays and their important days hmmm..
I am seriously thinking of changing this routine :D

Not only for me it happens with everyone one or the other way with busy routines..
Many times we experience insomnia, mood swings, emotional turmoil and uneasiness while carrying out various duties in our lives. This can further make you passive on many fronts in life.



We then lose all our positive energy and become the storehouse of negative energy.

Here are a few tips of regaining the lost positive energy in life:

Take Out Time for Yourself: Try and do a division of your heavy workload. Make a list of tasks which can be split into smaller chunks. If there are some tasks which you carry out regularly but at the back of your head you realise they aren't really important, give them up. Try and learn the art of time management. Make attempts to strike a balance between your personal and family life.

Bad Times would Eventually Go Away: Downbeat circumstances can become a cause of sorrow. But bear this in your mind that this time would eventually be over. Try and see if any benefits can be extracted from such harsh times. This would promote optimism in you.
Good Company: Try and avoid the company of people whose favourite pastime is exploring negativities in others. This can only aggravate your problem.

Think Positive: Don't let thoughts like: “I'm trapped”, “things are never going to change” etc. cloud your head. Easier said than done but you can at least give it a try.
At your Workplace: If you're finding it difficult to handle things in your office, do not hesitate in walking up to your boss and discussing things with him. These days many companies provide counseling to their employees.
Leisure Activities: Though clichéd but activites like watching movies, listening to music, gossiping, travelling can actually help you overcome negativities in your life.
Getaways: If you're stuck in the din and bustle of your city life, it's time to go for a nonchalant break. Plan getaways to hills, jungles, beaches et al (there's no point going to just another city for that would not help you escape from the usual uproar). You would feel rejuvenated and. Some personal experience here.
Eat Healthy: Eating healthy food is a key to not just remain physically fit but also to attain good mental health.I miss my mom food hmm ...

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Unexpected Sadness..

New year carried Sadness earlier itself ..
My grand father died ...I was shocked to listen that news at first...Later I understood I left out with no choice other than to digest it ..

I started thinking about past ..the moments we share in the past...
My grandfather talks less so our conversations are countable from these many years..but we share silence as a emotion uncountable times..two decades of silence ended with this year death noise ...
In my early childhood once I felt y these old ppl in our house ..always restrict ours in one or the other..
I asked my dad .."Dad we will leave oldies(grand ma and grand father) alone.. I didnt like them much.."
He shocked at first n later he told in a soft tone " OK we will leave them alone ..chinna(my bro)'s wife also will do the same for US..is that fine for you? "
I was horrified for a thought like that even..
He understood my feelings and continued.."In my young age I used to be very naughty..old days ppl bring water from far places..your grandfather also bring water from far ..at tht time I asked him to carry me otherwise I used to cry..He cant leave me in a crying mood so he carries water n me ..think how difficult it would be ? he should do that for every time and he did..how much patience required for that??"

After listening to my dad I felt bad n guilty...From then I started observing his acts unlike past..
n I loved him .....
I felt very sad after watching him dead ...Infact I cried...Crying won't make you less of a person.It's perfectly fine to cry over a lost love. It's the first stage of dealing with the situation.
losing someone and accepting it is one of the most challenging decisions that one will ever have to do. The aftermath is painful and is too hard to deal with. Acceptance is the last thing you have in mind for you can't believe that after everything you went through, after all the years you have been together, it still came to an end...
It is important to understand that going through denial is a natural part of the grieving process when a relationship ends..
Denial means very simply that you don't want to believe or acknowledge that what is happening is really happening.
It is definitely hard to move on, but you have no choice but to get over a relationship that ends suddenly....

tatayya I missed u...........Always noise ends not silence...you will always be there in my inner silent thoughts.........

Last Weekend..

My dad told me that we will go to temple on weekend so start on friday..hmmm I took permission to leave early n caught the train at 5.30 PM.Reached home at 9.30 PM.Mom keep on asking one or the other thing of my daily routine..I wondered,she didnt get bore of listening same all the time? :D
Dad asked me to go sleep ..tomorrow u have to get up early ..pooja starts at 6.30 AM.Head bath is must etc.
waking up early always  sickkk  to me :p I am preparing to go to my bed room ..he added 'keep an alarm'.
I pretended like I  m dumb :P
Next day morning mom came with a warning tone  "get up IT IS ALREADY 6.30" ..I woke up  with a horrified expression after listening that..My dad scoldings started on the other side "u r such a lazy girl,no common sense etc..... " :D
My dad getting phone calls from priest from 7AM.My dad saying we will be there on 15 minutes like that..
I know again my dad searching words to praise me :P
Rain also started ..
At last we started at 7.20 AM ..while going dad continued the remaining saga :D
he added I know u r having no time sense so I told pooja time half an hr before still we r going late becoz of u ..u should know some things we should do on time..some things like shopping does nt require time sense etc..
I thought hmm dad U always tell like this :D I remebered how many times he told the wrong train timings (always tell half an hr or one hr before :P )
ofcourse I dont mind with all these :D who cares!! :P (actually I am comfortable being like this :P )
we drenched a lil bit n we entered into temple ..pooja started.. priest asked me two times to say 'ma ma' except tht he didnt bothered me much ..I am watching carefully siva idol..Always I love to watch him..

Priest asked us to sit outside ..he will be starting some thousand times of siva names etc ..I didnt understand much abt it ..what I got is we didnt required to sit there..
I  n my dad came out n simply taking rounds n observing temple..First time I watching this temple n noticed it is very old ..It was wonderful!! temple has been built on side of a lake..
My dad saying this temple is reconstructed now..when I came to this temple at my childhood,very big trees are surrounded here like tht..
we had a random talk afterwards ..Interesting ones are :

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In the middle of talks,I asked my dad "can we sit somewhere" ? he asked "y dont u stand atleast for an hr"
I said "Come on dad, it was already 45 min over .. I cant" :D n showed one bench ..he said tht was drenched ..it was under a tree so I said may be some part is not drenched ..let see I said n went for confirmation it was completely drenched..
He is smiling after watching my face n he said "c this is the problem with u..U dont believe until unless u come across with the problem. U should listen to it when something is not good for u n need to change according to it.." I am speechless as it is absolutely true!

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I saw the fields beside the temple n talking about people who r cropping it n all..I asked 'dad y this place is like undeveloped all the time ? '
He said in a grief tone..Here people just now stopped fighting between each other,still they r not aware of what they want..what does they require to lead a better life than this..People doesnt ask about roads even..
They r now simply enjoying the life with drinking ..
I asked "y dont we gather people n ask the MLA regarding problems?
He said " y dont we waste our time even people doesnt know what they want..If they r clear about what they want we can ask..one more thing people doesnt believe others too.."
He remebered one situation n started explaining what happened in that..
one person died who having insurance claim but the Insurance company  doesn't give money (30,000) to the family because his age is more than 70.
Family asked so many others all r asked insurance company ppl and agreed to what they said..
This time family came to me n I involved n  the company ppl gave money check in 3 days...
These r all simple tasks..still people doesnt know how to solve this..

I nodded to him n asked how u solved dad?..I know that he know so many big  people but I dont think he consult them for this small task..
 he said "I know one insurance agent here when we took policy from him..Now LIC agents will get the 25% from the policy but what they r doing is they r just keeping 5% of it n returning back the remaining percent money to the people who r taking the policy..he offered me the remaining percentage of one of our policies ..
I said "you people r living on that percentage..Keep it with you .."
He saw me with a non believing expression becoz who say no to money ..hmm
When these people came to me ..I called him n said the problem ..he told that "Because of U,I am doing this sir" ..
Generally people ask about their own benefits but here we r asking for others ..That is the another reason for him to think better of us..n doing it by taking his own interest..
dad added : If he is not there also I can solve it by talking with the company manager as it is a small amount..
I thought I know dad u can do it ..I love you ..... :)

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We came out of temple later ..last weekend is one of the sweet moments which I spent with my family...