drenched in rain...

Today i walked in rain n drenched completely..
When i start walking it was light..so i thought its ok n started to walk in the rain ..
i liked tht..but suddenly rain became vry heavily n I drenched completely wid in 5 min..hmmmmmm wat to do anyhow my room came soo i started walk bcoz i dont have a thought to stop in middle..
after coming to my lane i noticed tht my hostel road was completely blocked..i stepped in tht water which looks lik a pool..for 2 min i was ok..
My mind is thinking fastly on present situation n horrible thoughts came into my mind lik wat i hav to do if any snakes appears in tht water or wat to do if i step into a manhole which is open sometimes...i got shivering inside n frozen one second...
already water is touching my knees n i silently going in tht..suddenly lightining in the sky came,at the same time i stepped into the slope of the road .. i got a jerk in my body for tht..as early as possible i went otherside came fastly ....
i dont have this experience till now n i dont wanna again :D
atlast i reached safely..after tht i look back into tht road n i said thank god :) ..

y y y......

y i am being oversensitive these days..y i loved people who r closed to me..y i get hurted these days sooo many times....y y y...
So far i donno abt my closed ones in one context..tht is when i resist something in what they wants to do..when they stopped doing tht i thought they have done for me..at tht time I was happy for my thoughts..usually i dont ask them for y they stopped ..this is the thing i made wrong..
Now I realised they r stopping for some reasons other than me....this hurting me badly..bcoz I felt like they dont giving value for me .......
Donno tht I am such a fool to knowing the truth n as well as to accept..
Now a days i cried sooo many times ..i donno i am such a emotional idiot soo far bcoz i never cried before lik this......
i noticed something here..when u dont love others then u dont hurt bcoz then only u want them to show effection on u otherwise u dont mind for what they have done ..
In these days i wanna post something otherthan this type of posts..but i was helpless to do..
I am not at all happy for soo many things in my life....

wanna be stubborn for somedays n stop loving people for a while but how it could be done....
I know , I cant do this bcoz i love them............